The Journey

Hey Spud,
Can you hurry up and be born already? I'm going bonkers!

Your brothers (the human one and the furry one) and I left Texas a week ago to begin our journey northward to prepare for your arrival. It was really hard saying goodbye to Daddy and our house and life, but at least now I'm in driving distance of you. It is just super weird not knowing when we will be home again.. it could be nearly February!

We spent Sunday night in Oklahoma City. I picked a motel with an indoor pool, so Squirt and I splashed around for a bit before bed. I really hope that you end up loving the water as much as he does because quite frankly, I don't consider it a vacation unless there is swimming and preferably ocean involved.

Monday night we arrived in St. Louis to see Aunt Jenn. She bought you a ton of cute gifts and one silly gift for mommy... a tub of cream cheese frosting. When I was pregnant with your brother I had gestational diabetes, which sucks for a pregnant hormonal lady with a sweet tooth. I joked that I wanted to eat a can of frosting as soon as I delivered, so as I came down from my pain medicine high, Aunt Jenn produced a can of frosting, that I savored more than any other food in my whole life.

On Tuesday we reached Chicago and got to spend a few days with your Lola, GG, and Uncle Alan. We didn't really do much, but it was sure good for my soul to see them.

And yesterday we arrived in Indiana, with Daddy's family, which is where we plan to be until your Tummy Mommy goes into labor.

Spud, you need to hurry up and get the heck out into the real world. I miss your Daddy and won't get to see him until you arrive or Christmas, whichever comes first. And I don't wait well.

Your tummy mommy and I have both been having crazy dreams the last week. She woke up from a bad dream earlier in the week and couldn't feel you moving. She rushed to the ER and got an ultrasound. Right as they were hooking her up, you kicked. You are going to be a little stinker, aren't you?

Everyone is so anxious for you! I mentioned that Aunt Jenn got you some gifts, and so did her mom (Auntie Linda). And your secret admirers struck again the other day, so you now have a bathtub.

I just want you here! Today I went and saw your cousin, Ryan. He is just a month old and OHMYGOSH cute! It gave me major baby fever. I just want to hold you in my arms, kiss your beautiful face, nibble your fingers and toes, and tell you how much I love you.

My mind is non-stop racing, wondering how these next few days/weeks will play out. I just want the phone to ring and have it be it. C'mon!!!!

I'm hoping for tomorrow. Your Tummy Mommy said that "11" is one of her favorite numbers, so 12-11-11 seems like a good birthday to me. And it would mean that you and your cousin Nathaniel are exactly 3 months apart.

Your Nanny was recently on a trip and found charms with your brothers name, Ryan, and Nathaniel. She wore them on a necklace today and it is so cute! She also bought one with your name and is pretty anxious to add that 4th charm.

I keep joking that I want to drive to where your Tummy Mommy is and slip some potosin in her coffee.

It has been a little over a year since Daddy and I started this whole adoption journey officially, but as it gets closer Spud, I realize that I have been waiting for you my whole life. While I was going through all the up's and down's, I couldn't imagine that it was all leading to you, but here I am... knowing that you are truly my son, my love, my reason for living. "God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you." I was so upset when I found out about the CF thing with your brother and Daddy & I had to make the decision on whether to have more bio babies. But now, it seems like adopting you was exactly what we were supposed to do.

I want to type a million words to you right now because so much is spinning in my head, but I will get off the computer and head to bed. But as I say goodnight, I send up a prayer that the next time I update this blog will be to let the world know that my beautiful son has arrived. I love you Spud. I know you will be here in your own time, but if you could hurry up and get here on Mommy's schedule, I'd appreciate it.

XOXO
Momma