Today would be perfect!

While there is nothing guaranteed about adoption, in all likelihood we will get "the call" during normal business hours. A tummy mommy will have seen our profile and said "they are the ones," and someone from the agency will call to let us know that you are officially on your way. In rare situations, we might get called in the evening or on a weekend, if a tummy mommy has already had you and picked us at the last minute. But generally, it is the phone calls from unknown numbers during the week that get my heart racing.

The agency will start by calling me and if they can't reach me, they will try daddy. If we are able to, we will be able to conference in the other parent, if not, we just need to write the info down to share. For some reason, this makes me really nervous. On the one hand, if I get the call and can't get a hold of your dad, I wonder how I will stay calm, especially with daycare kids running around. And how will I contain my emotions while trying to get a hold of him. The nice thing is, he has already forgiven me in advance if in this situation I tell your Nanny & Lola before I tell him. On the other hand, what if he gets the call? You should know already that mommy is a bit of a control freak and I'm sure I will bombard him with a bizzillion question that he won't know the answer to.

When I found out I was pregnant with Squirt, it was early in the morning. I called your daddy, who had just left for PT, and told him to come home. I met him at the door with the test and we got excited together for a few minutes, but then he was like "I really need to get to work." I guess I just want us to be physically together when we get "the call" that you are on your way.

So today would be PERFECT! It is the middle of the week, so prime time to call. Daddy is home sick today from work (which NEVER happens) and Squirt is sick too, so no daycare kiddos (which NEVER happens). So the three of us are just having a quiet day together while the rest of the world goes by.

If the phone rings today, Daddy and I will be together and get to put the agency on speakerphone and hold hands and smile and jump up and down while we hear all the details.

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In other Spud news, you should know that I obsessively check the agency website. They tell you not to, but that's like telling a woman trying to get pregnant that she shouldn't think about it. HA! Not gonna happen.

As of right now there are 45 couples that are waiting with us. It seems to me that you should feel amazingly special because any one of us would feel beyond blessed to love you and be your parents. And we are going to feel so lucky and honored when your tummy mommy picks us and you finally find us. 45 families. Those are good odds that you will find us soon, right?

I also spend a lot of time looking at the "available situations," babies that for whatever reason are having a hard time finding the right parents. Usually it is because of the cost. I read the stories... the due dates, the gender, the home state, and I squeeze my eyes closed and try to see the baby in my head. While those babies aren't you, I seem attached to them and just pray so hard that they find their right parents quickly. I can't imagine the emotions for the birth mom whose baby hasn't found a forever home yet.

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Well, Spud, it is time to get started with my day. I love you always and a little bit more each day. If you have any say in the matter, I think today would be a perfect day to let Daddy and I know that you are on the way.

XOXO